I am scared

Letter

Shadow

To a stranger,

You know I am scared of you stranger. I am scared of who you actually are. I am scared of world. I am scared of myself. I know I am pathetic. But I can’t help it. It is what I have been taught: to be scared. In order to save myself from others.

I have been hurt so I tend to run away from everyone. So why should I not run away from you? When you don’t even get why I am scared? I am scared because of society, of all the whispers that I can’t unhear. I don’t do that on purpose. I know I have hurt you because of that but I can’t help it. I still don’t know you. Are you actually that real person who heals me? Will you hurt me? You always assure me you won’t but for some reason I think you will. I am scared of the lies that you didn’t even say. Perhaps…. Who knows? I know I am acting crazy. You have to understand that I am not crazy. I have been traumatized. Even though I am scared, for some reason I have begun to trust you stranger. That is what scares me most because trusting leaves emotional scars.

I know I am acting crazy but sometimes I wonder if you are playing some cruel game with me. If you are please stop because I can’t take anymore hurt. I am already broken. I just can’t take it anymore hurt. Please don’t hurt me! Please don’t, because this time I will die. I will die by remembering all your false promises. And your false honesty. I will be shattered. If you aren’t, then stay for some time? Will you stranger? Will you stay? Because if you do one day you will no longer be stranger. You will become something more. Something that I am not ready to accept.

Yours beloved stranger…